I guess mine aren't so different from your's. The goals I have are to be content with life and to enjoy it. That would probably involve liking where I live, doing something I care about, and being good at a few hobbies that I find meaningful. I would like to visit a few more countries in East Asia, and maybe live in one for awhile. I would also like to visit Europe and bum around from country to country on the trains. But in the short term, I'm not sure where I want to live, if I want to get married eventually, or if I would want kids at some point. I would like to retire, but since I'm still in school, that probably won't happen anytime soon. (Aug 5, 2008 | post #9)
I disagree with most of the main ideas behind most forms of Satanism or Luciferianism, but I don't have any prejudices against the people. I realize that everyone is looking for answers, and like all religions, Satanism reflects a desire to find objective truth and to understand human nature and how it relates to the world. But I think it's a pretty reactionary movement that relies pretty heavily on Christianity. The variants have never struck me as being very deep, and are typically simple philosophies, variations of gnosticism, or irrational devil worshiping. As Ihsahn from the band Emperor once said, Satanism is a path towards something else. It's good if people can use it to explore themselves, and come away from it as a more understanding person. (Aug 2, 2008 | post #54)
Thanks for sharing, Genevieve, those are nice goals. It's probably good that some are short-term and some are long-term things, so you can accomplish small goals while you work on bigger ones over time. I'm sure that you could get the directorship position if you put your mind to it. 40 countries in 40 years? That would be very impressive, and I can't even imagine what it would be like to experience so many different cultures. Staying overnight in a haunted house would be interesting.... (Aug 2, 2008 | post #6)
Okay, I wrote a long-winded, disorganized post, but hopefully it explains a bit about it from my perspective. http://www.topix.c om/forum/news/sex/ TO3B286L2BG9O9LE6 (Aug 1, 2008 | post #4)
Good questions. I've never tried antidepressants, so I can't say anything about them, but I can share my experiences in a long rambling post. It's hard for me to state definitively that I've been depressed, because I haven't been diagnosed. But I have done tests for depression and checked psych manuals like the DSM-IV. They seem to point toward moderate atypical depression, so that state is all I can comment on. Melancholic depression is the type where people feel sad and can't feel happy, but that's very different from what I'm familiar with. I don't see a lot in common with being sad and being depressed. When someone is sad, it's just an emotional state. With depression, I just feel empty, disconnected, and lonely, but not sad. It's possible to feel happy and get into good moods temporarily (being amused and having fun), but it's not the normal state. Normally it's as if your mood is naturally dragged down and you feel worse about yourself, but it's not possible to feel normal sadness. When it was very bad, I would sleep a lot, couldn't eat full meals, and couldn't concentrate. I would have thoughts of dying (wishing I could die, but not necessarily suicidal thoughts) naturally popping into my head throughout the day while I was at work. They would just come spontaneously. I'm not sure why this happens, but I think it's one of the reasons people begin to think about suicide. I don't think that I could ever kill myself (I couldn't change my mind after doing it), but if it's really bad, it becomes sort of a sick and liberating fantasy. I'm not sure why, again, but it happens naturally. When it's just normal, it's still possible to have fun. But often enough, after that, a few thoughts will spiral my mood downward and I quickly find myself in a pretty miserable state. Sometimes it's bad enough that the only decent thing that can be done is just to take a nap and hope that it will be a bit better later. When it's bad, there is also a slight physical sensation of emptiness in the chest. It's like the opposite of feeling warm and comfortable from a hug (stupid analogy, but hard to describe). I'm not sure about how other people deal with these things, or how it is for them. I hear about people having melancholic depression, and I can't relate to it. And I hear about people "feeling depressed" or having depression for a short while, and I'm a bit skeptical about that. To me that just sounds like they're sad, or that they have the blues. There are a few good side-effects of depression, though. One is that it makes the person appreciate friends and affection. Another is that it forces the person to examine him/herself, even though it's in vain and won't get rid of their depression. And another is that it makes life easier to deal with, emotionally, in some ways. Things that would make other people sad or angry seem much easier to deal with. (Aug 1, 2008 | post #19)
Oh, I'm sorry Genevieve, I didn't see your questions. I've only checked Topix a bit in the last week. I'll think about it for a bit, and then post a response. P.S. You don't have to worry about offending me. I'm not sensitive about questions or anything like that. (Aug 1, 2008 | post #3)
Hi Genevieve, I have a few questions for you. What things do you want to do in your lifetime? Do you have specific goals or time frames for them? How do you see yourself in 20 or 30 years? And do you want to change things about yourself, or are you happy with who you are now? I'm just curious, and I like learning more about how people view life. (Jul 31, 2008 | post #1)
Use violence against white men dating black women
So you changed your name, and you're continuing to troll the same topic in the same way? (Jul 29, 2008 | post #4)
Women aren't princesses. Putting them up on a pedestal isn't healthy, and it doesn't help them achieve equality. Women should be respected and regarded as individuals (something they still aren't considered to be by society, in many ways). (Jul 28, 2008 | post #23)
Should I attack these white men?
I think this is relevant... http://www.penny-a rcade.com/images/2 004/20040319h.jpg (Jul 24, 2008 | post #198)
I think there is something disturbing about a 23-year old man and a 12-year old girl being friends (as though the guy is a teenage boy). There are reasons that single adults and teens generally don't hang out in this way. One of those reasons is so they don't end up in these sort of situations. (Jul 23, 2008 | post #31)
Should I attack these white men?
And on some level you're afraid that there won't be any women left for you. These interracial dating threads are all the same. I didn't even realize this was still an issue until I came to Topix... So yeah, I hear women like it when their boyfriends are beaten up by strangers for no reason. That's a sure-fire way to win a woman's heart. :-P (Jul 23, 2008 | post #24)
does your balls hurt when sucked on
If you have lumps, you really should get them checked out. Lumps on testicles aren't smart to ignore, to say the least. But wouldn't you have noticed the lumps and felt some sort of pain before all of this? (Jul 23, 2008 | post #5)
does your balls hurt when sucked on
Umm... pretty sure that means she's biting them... :-P (Jul 23, 2008 | post #2)
What did you do after your wife gave birth to a black Kid
Nothing to see here. Just another ignorant Texan who feels backed into a corner because he is seeing his ignorant views being rejected by the rest of society. But I'm guessing that he takes these positions to fool everyone else about his own secret fantasies about black men... ^_^ (Jul 23, 2008 | post #52)
