Our God is a God of Life. It is murder. You can tell the Lord you are sorry and accept Jesus as the One who took your sin to the cross with Him so you can have eternal life in heaven where there is no more pain. I had an abortion 33 years ago and still wish I never had. But I try to focus on one day at a time. I am thankful for my daughter. I had two miscarriages and thought I was being punished. I rededicated my life to the Lord and you can too:)