Addicted to Pain-Killers?

i have been hooked on painkillers for almost two years, and it is unlike any other drug that i have tried. i did not plan on getting addicted, i thought i was stronger and smarter than that. however, i had no idea that i would have an addiction. during the "process" i did not realize what was happening to me. i would take hydrocodone to give me more energy, put me in a better mood, minimize emotional pain, and occasionally get a real nice high, the nodding off kind. Before i consciously realized what was happening, i was physically dependent; if i didnt take something i couldnt function at all, i would get so sick. i eventually moved up to oxycontin when hydrocodone was not strong enough, and then got on dilaudid as well. i was an addict, i could not stop. i eventually went to treatment, had a few months of sobriety, but then relapsed, and i am now currently trying to kick again, i will most likely need treatment. it is by far one of the most difficult things i have had to deal with, bc my brain, just like any other addicts', does not think properly and rationally, my thinking is skewed. i feel like im in a catch 22 with this whole thing, i know i need to get clean, im trying, but it hurts so bad at the same time, its like, why am i doing this? However, i know there is light at the end of the tunnel, other people have made it, and i wont give up. to all that suffer from this hell, i know how you feel, im there with you, and i wish you the best of luck and hope you can find it within you to fight this shit. dont give up, dont let people that dont understand bring you down, youre not a worthless junkie. take care, find life again, its worth the fight.

that's one of the reasons i never really got into pills that much. my advice would be to go to rehab though

Reading your e-mail made me think... I couldn't have written it better myself.
I've been dealing with opite addiction for over 5 years. It all started when I had a depression 3 years ago... I was taking oxycontin for chronic pain and I guess with my depression, I was desperate to find something that would numb me. Once my depression was finished - I entered Detox. They put me on methadone to wean me off the oxy. I relapsed about 6 months later. I started going from dr. to dr. trying to get more. I was doing fine, until I got caught. I ended up blacklisted throughout all the pharmacies. I ended up turning to codeine (small doses are legal here). It's almost like I need to use something in order to believe that I'm capable of any small task I need to do. If I need to make a phone call, I need to pop a few pills, because I tell myself, "I'll be more talkative, more confidant", If I need to do stuff around the house, I pop a few pills because I tell myself "I'll have more energy" - It's pathetic and I'm fed up. Since detox, I've kept this hidden from everyone. I'm dealing with an addiction that is more powerful then I am. And worse part of it all? The pills that I'm taking don't even give me a buzz... it's ALL psychological. I keep telling myself that it will go away - it's a phase and the damage I'm doing to my body will repair itself once I'm 100% clean. But I'm not even sure if that will happen.
It's a crazy cycle and all I can say is take one day at a time. You aren't alone.

if you really need help just go to rehab. it isn't like they're going to beat you

It's a sneaky addiction that creeps up. You don't realize there's a problem until you can't get any for awhile. First, it kills the aches and pains of life and uplifts the spirits, makes you feel everything's allright. Over time, you're taking an extra half, then 2 to feel the same way. When you're comfortable having pills in your pocket to take whenever you feel the need, the thought of being without them is really uncomfortable, even scary. But eventually, you run out, you crash and finally start to feel better. After some time, you reason that since you're not physically hooked anymore, you can control it if you get another bottle. If I only use it for pain,(migraines & degenerative disc) I don't notice the buzz and therefore don't feel the need to 'pop' them. Plus, even on the times I'd take them for the feeling, it's just not as good as it used to be. When misused, opiates end up creating a dark void that can never be filled by more opiates. Only getting healthy and finding things/people that you truly enjoy can do that. I wish you all the best of luck in feeling good without pills once again!

I'm on 40mg on oxycontin and 10/500mg Watson (hydrocodne) and I can't feel anything. But I don't go through withdrawal when I don't have opiates and they used to get me real high. I just don't get it.

you built up a tolerance. just take a break and you'll start feeling it again

My question to all is if you are taking them as prescribed why is it that its a problem to be on them?I guess i dont understand.If your not abuseing them and taking them like your dr says whats the difference in taking any other meds.There there to help you who need it.Now the ones who abuses in any way thats the ones the addiction hurts because they dont have the monthly supply so they do what it takes to get it or be sick as hell.So and responses to my post first please state whether you take them as prescribed or if you abuse them and if you dont mind which way u abuse them.

redroses wrote:

I'm on 40mg on oxycontin and 10/500mg Watson (hydrocodne) and I can't feel anything. But I don't go through withdrawal when I don't have opiates and they used to get me real high. I just don't get it.

simply put the T/R med (40s/80s) unless abused wont really get ya high, there is no rush from it (takenas prescribed) bcus its time released, thats not to say at 1st it wont leave ya feeling uforic but it wears off very fast(ya get adjusted) and no high, it bcus its gradually getting in your system) the only way to get high on T/R meds is to eliminate the t/r properties(not a good idea) clean/wipe off,snort,eat-crushed! but honestly the hydro is immediate released it will get u higher str8 up....but the tolerance youve built up ruined that

redroses wrote:

I'm on 40mg on oxycontin and 10/500mg Watson (hydrocodne) and I can't feel anything. But I don't go through withdrawal when I don't have opiates and they used to get me real high. I just don't get it.

if ya want a buz from it, two options, cut back for a week quit for 3 days cold turkey or wipe the pill cleean, cut in 1/4s and eat it....itll speed it up w/o eliminating t/r itll be a 6-8 hr med rather than 12 hr, if cut in half its gonna be a 8hr med, if crushed maybe 4hrs-6hrs

aim-e wrote:

i have been hooked on painkillers for almost two years, and it is unlike any other drug that i have tried. i did not plan on getting addicted, i thought i was stronger and smarter than that. however, i had no idea that i would have an addiction. during the "process" i did not realize what was happening to me. i would take hydrocodone to give me more energy, put me in a better mood, minimize emotional pain, and occasionally get a real nice high, the nodding off kind. Before i consciously realized what was happening, i was physically dependent; if i didnt take something i couldnt function at all, i would get so sick. i eventually moved up to oxycontin when hydrocodone was not strong enough, and then got on dilaudid as well. i was an addict, i could not stop. i eventually went to treatment, had a few months of sobriety, but then relapsed, and i am now currently trying to kick again, i will most likely need treatment. it is by far one of the most difficult things i have had to deal with, bc my brain, just like any other addicts', does not think properly and rationally, my thinking is skewed. i feel like im in a catch 22 with this whole thing, i know i need to get clean, im trying, but it hurts so bad at the same time, its like, why am i doing this? However, i know there is light at the end of the tunnel, other people have made it, and i wont give up. to all that suffer from this hell, i know how you feel, im there with you, and i wish you the best of luck and hope you can find it within you to fight this shit. dont give up, dont let people that dont understand bring you down, youre not a worthless junkie. take care, find life again, its worth the fight.

I am going through the same shit right now, I started taking oxycodone prescribed to me 8 mos ago & now the script doesn't last me the full 30 days, Im sick today until my Dr appt tomorrow. Will I survive this?

louann wrote:

<quoted text>I am going through the same shit right now, I started taking oxycodone prescribed to me 8 mos ago & now the script doesn't last me the full 30 days, Im sick today until my Dr appt tomorrow. Will I survive this?

remember this, the day you refill, start looking for a source to get subs or other meds, methadone or whatever to keep around for these bad days... so its always kept around, 1 subutex will keep ya at full strength for 3 days if chipped at rather than just eatn... 1 pill!!!3days!!! or if its not possible, when u see your at your last 10 pills start cutting your dose down 30% day one, 10 % day 2 10% from there on... or 1 sick cold turkey day will allow you to cut the dose in 1/2 from there on!!till you refill

Alot of my friends have been doin cough medicine and pain killers. They Drive High and everything else the same way. Even my Bf not to long ago got high off pain killers. I was wondering if pain killers can cause drastic damage?? problems other then addiction.. death or any other health problems?

The ingredient, Acetaminophen is toxic to the liver in high doses. This substance is more dangerous to the body than any opiate over time. A non drinking healthy adult's maximum dose is 4,000mg over a 24hour period. People do it all the time, but it's not a good idea to take over 1000 to 1500mg at a time or take them with alcohol to increase the effect. It raises the risk of liver damage as well as overdose since opiates and alcohol potentiate each other's effects. As for driving, it's not wise of course, but when someone's used to a moderated dose, it's about the equivalent to driving sleepy... depending on the person. It's still a DUI even though it's not alcohol, though so be careful out there!

I started takeing 1 vicodin a day for back pain...soon I was at 1.5, then 2. Before I knew it I was at 3, then 4 and now up to 6, sometimes 7. Been on them for 3 years and I need to get off them. Right now I have
6 left and I'm mentally preparing myself to kick them starting this weekend. It ain't gonna be easy but there are folks in much worse shape than I. But I know I have a problem with them and I know I have to get off 'em. I'm at the point I hate opening the bottle and taking them out.

Wish me luck

Jim

are there really any answers to stop taking drugs? what do they give you to stop drug addiction ...drugs... does this make sense...i think we need to be more realistic about it "most" people are addicted to something ... arent they? addicted to shopping work sex drugs love hate life you name it we are a country of excess its what we have all been taught im not making excuses for anyones behavior or trying to place blame ...its is simply the reality of it ... isnt it? i beleive that all things in moderation yes there may be some days you need to buy that pair of shoes you dont need or take that pill cause your back is killing you ..all i can say is try to be honest with yourself about it ....if you take it for recreational purposes ... keep it recreational ..okay its not easy ... try to stay strong in mind i have been saying to myself and out loud for most of my life ... "i dont get addicted to anything i can quit anytime" sound familar well you know what ...i dont get addicted to things and i do quit whenever it becomes a problem to myself and to the people i love WHY? because i have brainwashed myself into believing it so keep saying
I DONT GET ADDICTED TO ANYTHING!
I CAN QUIT ANYTIME!
eventually you mind will beleive so too

I have lots of oxy 80's and am looking for some new friends... all other's went to rehab... 22, male and live in whitby...

i can supply.. next to free. just looking for company... holla @ me

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