my cutting poem it gave me relife when i wrote it

I have the sharp razor in my hand
I just want so bad to slit
The pain in unbearable to stand
I cry on my bed as I sit

Some people ask why
There is nothing for me to say
So I drop my head and sigh

No one understands the pain I feel
There is no one I can trust, except god
So as I talk I have to kneel

As my pain continues
It seems as no one cares

This feeling causes me to cut
The words of people truly causes me to hurt
There is no point of these words, even if I am a slut

I have no clue as to why I do it
I would really like stop
But when I do it it takes the pain away, every little bit
It feels like I am already dead even though I am not

I am stuck in this thing called life
I have no real friends there all fake
that’s why my best friend is a knife
I just want to fall asleep and never awake

- Cierra Nicole

4-11-07
1:15am-1:22am

maybe this is my new way out i was really depressed when i wrote && i wrote a poem instead of cutting it felt really good you should try it!

DO NOT TRY && STEAL THiS AND CALL iT YOUR OWN!

that was good, it sounds like me to

hell yea that was good i write all the time u should write more offten

CiERRAH wrote:

I have the sharp razor in my hand
I just want so bad to slit
The pain in unbearable to stand
I cry on my bed as I sit
Some people ask why
There is nothing for me to say
So I drop my head and sigh
No one understands the pain I feel
There is no one I can trust, except god
So as I talk I have to kneel
As my pain continues
It seems as no one cares
This feeling causes me to cut
The words of people truly causes me to hurt
There is no point of these words, even if I am a slut
I have no clue as to why I do it
I would really like stop
But when I do it it takes the pain away, every little bit
It feels like I am already dead even though I am not
I am stuck in this thing called life
I have no real friends there all fake
that’s why my best friend is a knife
I just want to fall asleep and never awake
- Cierra Nicole
4-11-07
1:15am-1:22am
maybe this is my new way out i was really depressed when i wrote && i wrote a poem instead of cutting it felt really good you should try it!
DO NOT TRY && STEAL THiS AND CALL iT YOUR OWN!

wow...thats exactly how i feel....

mmmm thats really depressing but thats exactly how i feel everyday.

Ya, Satan will give you temporary relief if you do what he says, and you did. Don't be proud of yourself to give honor to something so damaging to your body and soul as cutting.

Satan deserves no honor.

Get delivered, Jesus loves you and is stronger than Satan and your cutting compulsion.

http://www.ministeringdeliverance.com/phpBB2/

I'm sorry Cierrah, I read your post wrong.

Proud of you for not cutting, and I apologize.

Still dear heart, you can call on God and get delivered, instead of writing poems about it.

http://www.ministeringdeliverance.com/phpBB2/

Being DRIVEN TO CUT wrote:

I'm sorry Cierrah, I read your post wrong.
Proud of you for not cutting, and I apologize.
Still dear heart, you can call on God and get delivered, instead of writing poems about it.
http://www.ministeringdeliverance.com/phpBB2/

Amen, that is true Cierrah

proud of you darling...:)

be strong... " GOD BLESS YOU "

It was GOOD really good\

Don't cut.

It does NOT help.

Cutting just adds more problems to the problems you already have.

When people tell you cutting is cool, they LIE!

Wake up to life, don't indulge yourself into a gothic style death culture, that's not cool, it maybe in fashion, but it lacks life that is needed for living in a real world.

Cutting is not cool, and should NOT be glorified.

this just made met hink about what i am doing

i cut im in foster care and i was going to go to another foster care but idk what going to happen now but i still cut i do help me only 1 person knows but all i just want to die but i guess no one would let me my dad hates me and my foster mom talks shit on my sister well that all i got to say well i guess i got to go
love lillian
ps i hope get it better have a great day

When I die I will see you
You lost your life so many years ago
yet I just can't seem to let you go.
The painful thought of me and you,
stick to my body like morning dew.
The only way to freeze these memories
is to cut my arm untill my body fells at ease.
Now I feel numb and cold inside,
and do not now if I am going to die.
These tears start to fall down my face,
and my body titens up, as if in a tight imprace.
Then I see you standing so close,
and see this beautiful medow.
My heart stoped beating and the pain was no more
as I felt this wonderful bliss that I never felt befor.
Always and forever I'll be by you side
love and charishing the fact that I died.

That was the poem of the death spirit. You don't have to live that way. You don't have to cut and bleed, only to cut and bleed over and over again. What is "besutiful" or "happy" about that? It's bondage and torment and being compelled by the demons of this world.

http://christianity.about.com/od/depressionan...

Others have been set free and delivered from their compulsions and torments. I am one of those, healed and delivered supernaturally. It's real.

I used to cut..
Days i feel the urg to do it again!
I have written poems pretty simular to this one on here...
I guesss it kinda helps with the pain and everything,, but cutting may feel like it helps (which how it feels) but it doesnt! Plus the worst thing is having the scars that never go away! People see them and they talk!!!
I have been called emo freak and a lot more.. something that i dont enjoy... If you cut or are thinking about doing it Please dont so it 'for your own sake'!!! Go talk to someone, write, or just talk to a friend...

emo_girl_420_16 wrote:

i cut im in foster care and i was going to go to another foster care but idk what going to happen now but i still cut i do help me only 1 person knows but all i just want to die but i guess no one would let me my dad hates me and my foster mom talks shit on my sister well that all i got to say well i guess i got to go
love lillian
ps i hope get it better have a great day

WOW!!! i know exactly how u feel... i've been through soo much hell.. and one of them is going through foster care and DCF. thats when i wanted to die, but then my cousin told me to try cutting, and of corse i listened to her and now im addicted... but i use to cut at least 2 a day, 5 days a week. but i haven't cut in 3 weeks... do ANYTHING to keep from cutting... but if u cant stop, try to cut lightly so theres not so much damage on the outside... need to talk?
mz.lautner12@yahoo.com

Aeahr wrote:

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WOW!!! i know exactly how u feel... i've been through soo much hell.. and one of them is going through foster care and DCF. thats when i wanted to die, but then my cousin told me to try cutting, and of corse i listened to her and now im addicted... but i use to cut at least 2 a day, 5 days a week. but i haven't cut in 3 weeks... do ANYTHING to keep from cutting... but if u cant stop, try to cut lightly so theres not so much damage on the outside... need to talk?
mz.lautner12@yahoo.com

You can stop cutting, but you need deliverance...

http://christianity.about.com/od/depressionan...

you do need deliverance... i guess my cousins didnt come in time though. dont wait around to stop, try anything, its better than waiting while doing the same thing

=D