Judged:

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You may have fooled a many my sweet; but it is only too bad that you chose to make such a dramatic personal decision to thwart the love of someone whose only intent was to do just that...love you...so I see, you just couldn't stand the fact that you could not afford to reveal to me the magnitude of your involvement with the criminally insane..I tried to help..probably still could..but everyone knows you can't help someone unless they will let you..and so I have relived another bad dream over again...so goes the same result with someone who gave up, whom I know is weak..whom I wanted to be there for indefinately...but I guess this time the Devol wins again; if there is such a "thing"..then I feel you have something to worry about. Tina, there is no way in Heavan or hell that you can "honestly" deny any longer that your plot to attempt to live a normal life while tolorating the the threats and disrespect of those whom you eventually chose over me is what you allowed to cost you perhaps one of the best things that has ever happened to you. Me. Why? Because..you can't replace a "real friend", and you will never forget my love will you my dear. Of course, as always, I wish you the best...but I must say that after that last little "hat trick" you pulled whence you decided that the mature adult emotional decision that you had made was no longer in effect...I will likely have permanent doubts...I guess that would be because I let you do permanent damage...

Signed Sincerely,

"Guess Who?"

"I still Love you Ticklz;
That will never change;
But with the same I will always suffer
the sadness and memories of knowing that
the people who have manipulated you and taught you to manipulate masterfully are not worthy of that part of you which made me desperate to save..you were never just a "convenience".
You should have been my wife. If there actually enough time for you on earth due to your present health situation..then maybe you can find what you are perhaps looking for...because I know that you do not already have anything more than a temporary remedy and people about you that,yes some do actually care, but as has been evidenced, like you they have shown that they have their price.