Behind the tragedy

I've heard a lot of rumors, and a lot of untrue speculations about what some people think happened at MY birthday party...so I'll tell the whole story. I was Merisha's girlfriend...and a few weeks prior to my birthday party, I wrote Merisha a letter, telling her that it wasn't going to work with us anymore if she kept huffing...beacause I didnt want to be around that. Merisha later told me she had quit. Saturday, she came over for my birthday party.. She had only been there about 15 or 20 minutes, when she went to the bathroom.. she had only been in there for about a minute, when we heard a loud bang.. My dad ran to the bathroom, and knocked, when she didnt answer i ran in.. I found her laying in the bathtub with a can of air freashner still in her hand. As soon as we found her, my mom ran to the phone and called 911... My dad got her out of the tub. At this time she was breathing still.. My dad said, grab the camera, so we can take a picture and show her how horrible she looks when she wakes up.. Then she started shaking, and we noticed how bad it was.Then my aunt was talking to the disbatcher.(911) and they told her what to tell my dad to do.. My dad tried everything he could to save her.. He did cpr, and everything..It seemed to take forever for the ambulance to get there, and when they finally did they took there slow sweet time to get in the house.. as soon as the ambulance got there, I ran outside and told him that she wasnt breathing.. that he needed to hurry up.. As soon as the ambulance got there, we got ahold of her family.. A little while later, her dad called, and threated to kill my dad... I can understand why tho, I mean, he just found out his only child died.. And i dont think her parents know the whole story, so maybe they will read this.. I just want her parents to know that we tried everything we could.. and if i would have known she was doing this.. i would have stopped her... but knowbody knew.. And some people think it was a bad idea for my dad to take the picture of her, but it was so we could show her how terrible she looked, so we could try to scare her out of it, when she woke up. Knowbody knew at that time she wasn't going to make it.. we had no idea. I feel very bad for her family, but we too suffered from it.. We had to leave our house, beacause we thought we were going to be killed for something that wasn't at all our fault.. and I'm very sad too.. Everyone loved merisha, she will be dearly missed... Anyone that has any questions, or anything can e-mail me at raszuana_beardsley@yahoo.com

its been this long and i am still sad about the happening... i was doing some homework on her death.. and found many things that comprehend with her.... i was looking at all the websites i could find and came across this.. i am glad that you put something up.. adn that when people type it in on google or yahoo they could be able to find this.. words directly from a person who was at the party... i was in the process of making one myself.. but then i lost interest because no matter what i say, it will never change the minds of her parents.. but i can always try to.. well i love you alot my wifey wife wife...
i wish i could've done something to stop her from doing it.. i wish i could go back in time or something and change it.. but i cant.. you only get one chance in life.. so lets make it the best life ever...
merisha will be loved for ever and always..
i love you raszuana... alot
love,,
troy

Raszuana Beardsley wrote:

I've heard a lot of rumors, and a lot of untrue speculations about what some people think happened at MY birthday party...so I'll tell the whole story. I was Merisha's girlfriend...and a few weeks prior to my birthday party, I wrote Merisha a letter, telling her that it wasn't going to work with us anymore if she kept huffing...beacause I didnt want to be around that. Merisha later told me she had quit. Saturday, she came over for my birthday party.. She had only been there about 15 or 20 minutes, when she went to the bathroom.. she had only been in there for about a minute, when we heard a loud bang.. My dad ran to the bathroom, and knocked, when she didnt answer i ran in.. I found her laying in the bathtub with a can of air freashner still in her hand. As soon as we found her, my mom ran to the phone and called 911... My dad got her out of the tub. At this time she was breathing still.. My dad said, grab the camera, so we can take a picture and show her how horrible she looks when she wakes up.. Then she started shaking, and we noticed how bad it was.Then my aunt was talking to the disbatcher.(911) and they told her what to tell my dad to do.. My dad tried everything he could to save her.. He did cpr, and everything..It seemed to take forever for the ambulance to get there, and when they finally did they took there slow sweet time to get in the house.. as soon as the ambulance got there, I ran outside and told him that she wasnt breathing.. that he needed to hurry up.. As soon as the ambulance got there, we got ahold of her family.. A little while later, her dad called, and threated to kill my dad... I can understand why tho, I mean, he just found out his only child died.. And i dont think her parents know the whole story, so maybe they will read this.. I just want her parents to know that we tried everything we could.. and if i would have known she was doing this.. i would have stopped her... but knowbody knew.. And some people think it was a bad idea for my dad to take the picture of her, but it was so we could show her how terrible she looked, so we could try to scare her out of it, when she woke up. Knowbody knew at that time she wasn't going to make it.. we had no idea. I feel very bad for her family, but we too suffered from it.. We had to leave our house, beacause we thought we were going to be killed for something that wasn't at all our fault.. and I'm very sad too.. Everyone loved merisha, she will be dearly missed... Anyone that has any questions, or anything can e-mail me at raszuana_beardsley@yahoo.com

troy everybody truly dosnt know what happend but you and raszuana.but we all loved merisha but,some of us couldnt do anything because our voice is to little.
R.I.P MERISHA WE ALL LOVE YOU

Woa... i had no clue this website was on here...but i know its been a while since this happened but for some reason today i thought about it and wondered how everyone is doin now and her family...how christmas this past year was without her...and school...and i believe next year she would be graduating...and thats gotta be extremely hard for her family to know she couldove been moving on and starting a family when she got done with school....but i wonder if shes still thought of alot and ppl still visit her grave...if i wasnt in florida i defenitely would...but thats kinda hard since im so far away...im sure she is though..and i really miss her...and i wish the best for her and her family...(friends too)...
R.I.P Merisha! Youll never be forgotten hun!:)

Hi, I am the cousin of Merisha, from Florida. It's been a long time since this happened, but I still think about it everyday, everyone will always believe what they want to, You guys are the only ones that REALLY know what happened, and we have to live with what we THINK happened. I am sorry, Troy, For my familys reaction when seeing you at the funeral, I was coming up to talk to you and next thing I know, my Uncle is running towards the car you were in. I heard that in the Autopsy report that she didnt have air freshner in her lungs, she had raszuanas (or someone elses) asthma Inhaler,(albuterol) which when it was mixed with the medicine she takes, gave her a massive heart attack. Thats what the Autopsy says, and they are the pros. I'm not blaming anybody anymore, I know this was %50 both of your faults, Merishas and whoever what at that party. She shouldn't have done it, wheter it WAS alone or not, it was her decision........ The family of merisha has not forgot about her, people visit her grave frequently, I drove all the way from florida so I could take flowers to her grave for her past two birthdays..... we all lost someone important that day, and I want to know, How often do you think about it???

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