I am Joel's mother in law an and have been for about 17 years. I could not believe he would do something like this. The Joel I know would not have. I believe he was pressured beyond his ability to think straight. I believe that his state of mind was so frazzled that he thought this was the last straw for him to cope with the pressures he had to face in his life. I pray that someone will let him have some evaluation to find out why he was pushed to this crime. I am praying for him daily, and I love my son in law still. Please do not judge him for is actions, find out why. His children are crushed by this. I pray they can work thru this. He was their hero so you should be able to understand their grief. I will be there if he needs me always.