There was a spark of light however, at last! Employment. Yes, I found employment! There may have been a few late bills that would be difficult to an excruciating degree to catch up on, but I found employment! I worked, I aspired, I showed that I was determined, I showed that I wasn't afraid to excel. Life was becoming sustainable, and the help from the elders would soon become cut off after I'd have the ability to sustain the modest needs of the household. Life was becoming empowered.. brightened.. and lively. I came across a woman whom I eventually felt attached to.. a woman that needed someone to hug her.. someone to be there for her. She was a gem, the one in a million, the happiness that was added to my life, the icing on top of the cake.
A phone call had arrived on Independence Day. While I was celebrating America's glorious freedom, the world began to collapse around me. I became laid off of my career. Perhaps things would be alright? Perhaps I'd simply go out again and find another career to place my work upon? Perhaps.. perhaps.. it was always perhaps..
It's always in an instance where when one event is wrongful, so many other events turn sour...
My woman had left me.
We came under the realization that we were walking two completely different paths.. and that separating now would be more simple than separating later. A hedgehog's dilemma, if you will.. to where when the hedgehogs become too close, they simply hurt one another. My heart was torn asunder. I was a sword that fought on while she my shield to support my stance upon hardships. I felt that I was merely just a weathered, dulled sword at that point.. unable to advance.. unable to strive.
Child support may be a possibility, but the parents' name is not on my sibling's birth certificate. A DNA test is required and my parent cannot even afford the small amount it costs for this test.
My dues are around the corner.. such modest dues as well.. such low living expenses, such a frugal life, such a life where I've spent little to nothing on luxuries.. and I have nothing.
My hunger for food has been growing every day, and I'll only have a short time to live under this roof before I'm forced to the streets. Still, I try to seek employment.. with excellent communication skills, a fine mind in literary skills, with no drug or criminal record of any sort. Alas, I feel that hope is lost...
I've tried my absolute best. I turned my once aloof life to a life of dedication and morals. I tried to fight against this fierce storm that society names a recession. I tried.. I tried..
As I share my pain to whomever reads this, I urge you all to ensure that either you as the young adult, or you as the parent.. do not become, nor do not raise your child in a sense to where they live such a spoiled and aloof childhood.
I am paying gravely for my mistakes.. mistakes that I've tried so endearingly to fix.
This world is nothing but cruelty, and only the best will stay afloat. Although I was told several times in the past that I was able to do anything I desired if I placed my mind upon it.. they were false. I've done so much, and I've given so much effort.. to nothing but vain.
Soon I'll be walking the streets, finding sustenance to keep myself breathing. I'll become the lowest of society.. when I tried to such an unrelenting degree to refrain away from it.
Is this the fate I really deserve? Must I keep falling deeper in this hole when I want to become a somebody? Can't I just move on somehow and attain the business degree I've wanted for years? Why do things have to end like this? All I wanted was to sustain and advance.. just one step at a time..