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we miss you!!!

I alway's loved you as a brother and still do, you were the most positive, loving, gentle,strong both physically and mentally, charming, handsome and confident and carasmatic person I had ever encountered. Life is very different with out your physical presence in my life but you will forever be in my heart. My tears will run until I see you again, I just hope the place you are in now is comforting and able to fulfill you every needs. You taught me as I tought you the ropes of life, skateboarding down steep hills when we were 13, working our first jobs together, talking to girls than women, you taught me that the glass is always half full, dont pass judgements on people, family is first, life is short so have the most fun possible. You helped me become the man I am now and will become in the future. I will never rest until we meet again, I will incorporate you in my life with thoughts of you all of the time. I am confused, scared, delerius, and in denial of this drastic happening in my life, I hope that your ok cause im gonna try to be. I love you with all of my heart for infinity, you are my loving brother, you are my passed and you will still influence my future for your spirit remains in my heart and the ones you love. I love you big guy, Eli Binshtok

I always looked up to you, I'm sad that your gone.

It is july 27 2010 and I'm reading what I wrote when I first learned your moving on to another place. My heart is in my feet and I feel sick. I'm am as sad as I was the moment tonya called me.well I have an amazing son now and I will talk about you to him because you are still here in my life.I love you, I talk to your picture next to my bed. There are too many words to say. I miss you and I want you back, I will never forget who you were in this world. You we're a saint amongst many other things. I don't know how this all works but I'm sure it makes sense once you get to that point. I feel you now its scary and not at the same time.you make me feel more comfortable living life knowing I will die one day because it happened to you and u are the strongest person in history and you are waiting for me.I hope where ever you are life is sooooo good to you. You deserve only the best I love you your brother eli I want to write forever but I can't because forever won't change the great distance between us. You were and still are my best friend my only friend then and now. Only if you knew how much I loved you when you were alive. Would it make a difference, would u have been the best man, god father.would u still be on the other side of the telephone.always in my heart and forever in my dreams da double r e double l jamal wallace.

Darrell there is no denying that you had a rough life. But, even through all the hardship you were given, you were nothing less than an outstanding wonderful human-being who had an enormous amount of compassion.
Rest in peace in heaven my friend.